An old friend from high school wants me to go to church with her. She's on her second marriage. That's fine--it's just that I can't seem to even get married once. She said, "I just know you will like my church."
I'm sure I will...I'm sure that it totally turned her life around. I'm sure it's scripturally sound and does all the things it is supposed to be doing. I'm sure the fellowship is great. But I'm not sure it will be for me.
Will it be the kind of church where singles are welcome?
Will it be the kind of church where I might meet someone?
Will it be the kind of church where I will be happy going if I never meet anyone?
I don't know. Because at this point I'm trying to create a life that I never envisioned in a way that I never expected. I'm trying to be brave, but it's a life by myself. A life where I just work and have friends. It's just not anything I knew--or any of us knew. When we were growing up, most people were married. I never expected that it would be happy all the time, but I certainly didn't expect to be alone all the time. How do I make my happiness for myself? People told me it was sad when I said I was going to have to learn to be my own husband. But that was years ago and there still hasn't been anyone--at least not for more than a month. (end)